Ooooohhhh, all achy and stuffy and drippy these days. This sux. I started feeling achy Monday night. I was uncomfortable at work, all toasty warm and took my shoes off bc I felt so puffy. Puff Librarian. I thought I was PMSing bc I expected to be MSing any minute. I woke up Tuesday morning achy all over and I mean all over. It was the kind of achyness (sp?) you feel after you work out at the gym after not having been there for months or years.
Now, I did just join a gym on Sunday and planned to go on Tuesday for the first time. Then I woke up Tuesday with all the aches of having gone to the gym, as if just thinking about going to the gym was enough to leave me with such pain. I've never felt so achy over so much of my body. Even my butt ached. Why would my butt ache? My butt hasn't worked a day in its life. That 'V' between my thumbs and index fingers ached. The tips of my ears ached. My nipples ached, for goodness sake. And not in a good way. Of course, there's more to it than that, e.g., I'm coughing up bits and bobs of my respiratory system on a regular basis.
I'm slightly less achy today and thank goodness for that bc it was most uncomfortable. I did not go to work last night, deciding I needed to stay home and rest. I'm not going in for tonight's Socrates Cafe either. We have a rather shallow bench at work so I try not to call in sick unless I feel really badly bc it can be difficult to find coverage. If I'm sick for the Cafe, it affects people who attend, but not my co-workers bc if I'm sick we just don't hold the Cafe that night. I do post it on the Cafe's meetup.com site, email people and call people so they don't waste a trip to a cancelled Cafe.
Right now there are about 6-8 people who come with some regularity. I do wish someone else would develop an interest in moderating. I would like to not have to be 'on' at every meeting and most meetings require active moderation. Alas, none of the regulars are interested in moderating at this time. Oh well, I probably wouldn't be interested if I were them.
Sometimes it's frustrating bc it feels like we're starting not far from scratch. I'm having difficulty getting across what's an appropriate philosophical topic. E.g., one time I asked the group, who were chatting about taxes in their various hometowns, if they were ready to get started, i.e., start talking about something philosophically. They replied that they thought they were doing just that. Now, pretty much anything can provide fodder for a philosophical discussion, but bitching about taxes is not philosophically productive. We eventually drew a discussion question out of the general topic of taxation and that went well. I've recently made a Bag O' Questions from which we can draw discussion questions. Most of the questions are taken from Ask Philosophers. I like those questions bc I think it's easy for people to relate to the qestions and the people who are asking them.
Another thing I'm working on is reminding people to at least try to back up what they say, i.e., that it's not enough to say, 'That's just what I believe' or 'That's what I think is the right thing to do'. Something else is that we're shooting for civilized discussion and reasoned debate. Shouting matches came up while chatting somewhat extracurricularly (word?) with some folks, and it turns out that at least one person thought a shouting match would be a good thing, a goal for any Cafe meeting. Lively debate? Sre. Passion? Fine. Philosophical investment? Okay. Challenging, rapid-fire back-and-forth? Why not. Frustration? But of course. Confusion? Certainly. Yelling and shouting? Nuh uh. (a) You need to hear what someone's saying iot have a productive discussion with them and (b) one's arguments don't get better as one gets louder.
Now, longtime readers will likely recall that I have issues with certain styles of discussion. (I'm also having issues with certain keys on my pc, so I'm likely missing u's and p's and capitalized letters all over the place these days.) I try not to let those isses get in the way of how people at the Cafe discuss things. I think that's led to some discssions getting out of hand, i.e., I've held back too much on the moderating front in an effort to not let my isses interfere and discussions have strayed far and away from the topic at hand and unproductively so. So it's been kind of a balancing act that way. in the end, I try to do my best and that's that.
I think it's good to have goals, to always have something toward which one is striving. And my big goal for today is to take a shower. OMG, I could not imagine showering yesterday. I simply could not imagine lifting my achy arms high enough to wash my hair. Or bending my pained torso low enough to wash my legs. Maybe I shold take a nice hot bath. I have a few friends and relatives who often give me nice body stff, including bath stuff, for birthdays and Christmas. Perhaps they think I could do with a spritz. In any event, I appreciate it bc I rarely buy stff like that for myself. Dunno why bc back in the day I spent tons o' money on all manner of things for myself. How many shoes did I need? A fraction of the number I had. But then i was young and impetuous, had fewer and smaller bills, it seemed like the thing to do going shopping with every paycheck, blah blah blah. And where is all that stuff now? Most of it made its way to the clothing drop box or the thrift store. That all seems like a lifetime ago, like someone else's life: dropping $150 on one stinkin' bottle of foundation. Now I think, 'How many used books can I get for $150 from Powell's?' Now I'm happy if my clothes pretty much match. I found a pair of jeans I like, have several pairs of them in different colors and consider myself set for jeans. I don't want to work at getting dressed.
Ah well, I guess I'll go psych myself up for a shower.